"Before you were conceived we wanted you, Before you were born we loved you, Before you were here an hour we would give our life for you. This is the miracle of life. ~Maureen Hawkins"

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Please send lots of prayers...

After "11" years of trying my friends Brandy and James welcomed their beautiful baby boy Wyatt James today at 28 weeks gestation. He weighs 2 lbs 5 oz and is 15 in long.  They think he will be in the NICU for 10 weeks and is breathing on his own for now.  Please send prayers their way that he stays strong and grows big and healthy so they can bring him home soon.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Am I crazy, please tell me I'm not crazy.

So as mentioned in a previous blog I have been experiencing multiple pregnancy symptoms, sore breasts, fatigue, nausea, constant hunger, etc.... I finally broke down last night and bought a pregnancy test. It of course was negative. What was I thinking! I'm on BCP's and have been for three months. I was hoping and wishing secretly that taking a pill at 5 instead of 6 may have been enough of a miss step to cause me to get pregnant but alas... that is not the case. Stupid BCP side effects!!! Funny how I spent years worried that my BCP pills failed and I was unexpectedly pregnant and now I am secretly hoping they WILL fail and I become unexpectedly and miraculously pregnant before our June TTC date. :) Well, just a little vent. Thank you for listening :)

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

A little weekend bonding and 2 pregnancy announcments!!!

Friday ~ I got to go see my friends new baby girl.  She is so tiny and prescious.  I just love her to pieces.  Her name is Brooke Antonette, LOVE IT! While visiting her I also got suprised with the news that yet another one of my friends is pregnant.  So happy for her but a little disappointed she didn't tell me herself.  I know people are affraid to tell me because of our losses but it still hurts to hear it from someone else.  I am so overjoyed for her!

Saturday ~ I went to the NW Womens Show in Seattle with my cousin this weekend.  We had a BLAST!!!  I had never been to one before but will definitely be going back again next year.  We were there to support my cousin who has just started her own business.  She sells these great little Kozy Kups for you drinks (see pic above) check them out at http://www.kozykup.com/.  We came home with about 10 lbs of free make-up/beauty/health products.  My cousin has herself been suffering with infertility and miscarriages so it was nice to spend a day chatting with someone who understands what it's like every time you see a women with a newborn or toddler and how your heart aches for the babies that could have been and the babies that will hopefully be some day. 

Sunday ~ I got to spend an amazing day with my DH.  First we went to a co-workers son's 1st birthday which was a little uncomfortable as we didn't really know any one there and there was a lady there with a two week old baby who when I asked her if he was a good baby said to me "No he's a Bratt".  WTF!! How can a two week old be a brat?  And these people get to have children!  Well, we made it through the torture of the party and then spent the rest of the day at our local theater pub having a wonderful date with yummy Artichoke dip appetizer a viewing of Alice in Wonderland in 3-D, a lovely dinner (enjoyed while watching the movie) and a trip to the book store.  It was perfect.  I love spending time with my DH.  Came home Sunday night to a wonderful We're Pregnant post on one of the blogs I follow by and amazing girl!  I love to hear when fellow bloggies are pregnant after so much struggle.  Congratulations!!!!  

Side Note:
I'm assuming these are all side effects of my lovely new BCP but I am experiencing all of the symptoms of pregancy and it is PISSING me off because I know it's not possible. 
Also, if you could all send your prayers my husbands way, he is interviewing for a new job today.  9-5, M-F weekends off.  This would be the first job in our 12 years together that he would have a weekends off day job :) 

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Well not really alot going on lately.  I am super excited for my SIL's baby shower in April.  I will be making the invitations.  I'll post a picture once there ready.  I have a great idea in mind!!  I still can't believe little Parker is almost here.  It seems like just yesterday they announced they were pregnant.  I have gotten over the initial shock of it all (they are due almot exactly one year to the day as when we would have been welcoming our own little peanut into the world) and am now in full blown excitment mode.  I can't wait for another little one in the family.  Not alot to report on the TTC front.  I am going on month two of my new BCP and thing seem to be going well.  Hopefully this is a good sign of things to come :)